Some awesome things.

A few awesome things have been happening in my life these past couple of weeks.  Turning 24 was kind of awesome I guess, but the things listed below were much cooler.

For instance, graduating.... that was awesome.  Studying, not so much.

Oh, and picking handmade leather shoes up for 4 dollah from the D.I. ---- Awesome.

Another awesome thing was being given this camera from this sweet old lady in my ward.

My sister making me this little wall hanging from a picture I bought at D.I.  ---- $1 = double awesome.

And then this onetime, a good friend gave me a rad necklace for birthday and graduation ---- so sweet AND awesome!

Being written sweet notes of love and encourage from family in a journal.  Awesome.

Spencer's aunt teaching me how to sew my favorite dishtowels.  My skills - not awesome.  Spencer's aunt - awesome.

Wearing my new favorite article of clothing due to comfort and awesomeness.

My stepdad bringing me the prettiest roses for graduation.  Awesome.

Do you want to know what is most awesome?  Having such wonderful friends and family.  I feel SOOO darn lucky.  And by the way, how come no one has ever told me how large my head is?

Motivated by what?

Image via tom boy style in the 1940s.  Quote via yesterday.Yesterday was a good day.  Probably one of the most thought provoking days I've had in a while. I had the privilege to attend a twelve step meeting as part of my clinical experience.  It was such a wonderful and spiritual experience.  Something that was said that I fell completely in love with was.  "Are we motivated by fear or are we motivated by faith?" I couldn't get this thought out of my head and had a good conversation with Spencer about it.  I couldn't help but think of all the things I do in my life out of motivation of fear.  Fear of failing a test, so I am motivated to study.  Fear of the unknown, especially with graduation in one month.  I really love this and want to be motivated to do things out of faith that I will succeed rather than motivated by fear of failing.  

Inshane in the membrane.

Heading to Utah in the morn because this guy is graduating. Woohoo!

There is not enough we could say about Shaner. My sister got lucky. (so did he, but she hit gold).

Shane is one of the nicest, most genuine, easy-going, loving people I know.

Ah, I just love him. Way to go Inshane (in the membrane)!

Just because I am curious, how old do you think Shane is?

Halleluyay.

It's my last year of college. For now.

Woohoo.

And I'm gettin' tired.

Done and Done.

Approximately two hours ago, I finished up was is thought to be the hardest class of the entire nursing program. They were not kidding, it was oh so difficult. I can't even tell you how many nights Spencer so patiently found something to do because his wife had to focus.  Ultra supportive.  I was scared to death to start it last September and can hardly believe its over.  Throughout the school year I would always find myself thinking, I can't stand school, it's soooo hard, I just want time to be a better wife, ......  Truth is, I can stand school. I have learned more than I ever thought I could. Although I am not graduated yet, I finished what I thought was impossible. It was possible.

Anything is really.

I sometimes get thinking and it gets deep, fast, in my head.  But the truth is, I can do hard things.  Anyone can. And voila, before you know it, it's over (in this sense).  I find that empowering.  If I want to be a surgeon, I can. If I want to be the best sister in the world, I can.  If I want to try things I have always been fearful of, I can.  Lately, I have really been thinking about going to medical school.  And when I start think, Me? really?, that thought pops into my head and reassures me that I can do it if I want.  (Although, I would like to be a momma more, I still can.)

I called my mom today after the test.  I of course was stressing about the grade that has not yet been posted (fingers crossed). She said, "Did you learn something?".  Of course!  "Well than that's all that matters. Look how far you have come."  She was right.

A LOT has happened with the family this past year.

Before this course, there are intense situations that I would have run away from with flailing arms.
After this course, I feel confident in my knowledge to help people. To help people when they are in a poor situation. I feel comfortable with traumatic situations. I never dreamed I would. I am so happy that I chose something to study and work toward that will depend on someone's life.  Although it has its downfalls, nursing, is such an amazing thing.  I am now starting to realize the beauty of it. And WHY people do it.

And for that, I am so grateful that this challenge and the knowledge I have gained.

Thursday is my homeboy.

Thursday. I will party.

Although I have one more year of nursing school.
The Junior year is considered the hardest.

And Thursday.
My Junior year is over.

Hallelujah!

Here are some recent pictures I've taken.

dreaming.

hello fellows.
here is my situation.

hiya on Prezi

my not so awesome story

alarm set for 5:00 am

woke up at 5:45 am

slapped my cheek a couple times to wake up.

didn't work.

fell asleep again.

woke up at 5:56 am

all is good, just have to hussle.

but, oh. so. tired.

finally get out of bed at 5:57 am

really tired.

walk into the hall.

its really dark.

and 

WHAM! 

smacked my head on the door.

the linen door was open and nailed me right in the face.

not exactly how i wanted to wake up. 

turning on a light would have been just fine.

BIG red goose egg down my face. 

show up to clinicals with BIG red goose egg down my face.

i sure know how to make an impression.

good news is...

i was on time.

impressive huh?

actually, not impressive.

that's my not so awesome story of the day :)

Study guides

Here are the rest of the study guides I finished up.

I know some readers found the last ones helpful, so here are the rest.

I know some readers used the last ones, so here are these if you want them. 

big test over all this jazz tomorrow.

wish me luck!

schmoool.

school is crazzzzzzzzzy.

but good thing is.

i love learning. 

i really do. 

does my brain love it? 

probably not. 

but. 

its 

going 

to 

have 

to.

because.

things.

are.

about.

to. 

get. 

nuts!

speaking of nuts.  i am really trying to find someone who has a tree with 

acorns {ex. oak} for a project i want to do.   

if you have some. let me know. 

i will bring you a nice homemade treat, scouts honor!

 

this and that.

i feel like the blog and i have been 'on a break' 

yes, we have a relationship.

things have been crazy busy around here lately with the sisters wedding and all.  i can't believe its in two days. its going to be such a good time.  i CAN NOT WAIT for the party.  but what i can't believe even more, is that school is in thirteen. I actually have been super bummed that school is coming so soon. where did the summer go???? i am Dreading this school year. i don't know why, i normally love school.  but there is one positive thing, i get to have more clinicals and i'm closer to being done.  gotta look on the bright side of things here.  

this past weekend, spence and i met up with his parents and their family friends in island park.  we hauled up there friday night just in time to make it to the mack's inn playhouse where they bought us tickets to see the show.  in all the years we had a cabin in island park, i had never been to this show, and it was so so funny. spencer was complaining about how it was an hour and a half long. it ended up being  two and he loved it. the next day, we rented tubes and floated the river below the dam to last chance.  it was a blast with all of us.  then, we loaded up with spencers parents and went to w. yellowstone. that was a good time. i almost bought some moccasins. i should have, but didn't. oh well. next time. 

sunday, we went to church.  i felt the spirit in sacrament a lot. it was nice.  we also went to the last band concert of the summer at ross park. that is always a treat too.  spencer and his family are die-hards.

and other than that, we have been going like mad with the wedding. 

and buying school books. talk about depressing.

but i am one happy muchacha. bc. life. is. bueno.

the study of beauty

As I was reading one of my nursing books today I came upon a sentence I loved.

"Aesthetics is the study of what is beautiful.  

It attempts to answer the question,

Why do we find things beautiful?"

So I thought about this sentence for about ten minutes, and read it over several times.

What do I find beautiful?

The human body

flowers.

A pregnant mama.

Laughter.

Brown Eyes.

Culture.

Creativity.

Natural things.

What do you find beautiful.

call me flo

wow

this is how i feel today. 

frazzled. exhausted. burnt out.

ready for the weekend.

its friday tomorrow. woohoo!

and we are off to salt lake for a couple days.

bliss.

what are you doing this weekend.

or for valentines.

please do tell

Tempted

Am I tempted to get one of these??

Yes, I am.

Will I?

I JUST CAN'T DO IT.

no I am not humble enough

$900 worth of books is really going to take a toll on the old spine though.

{not that if you have one its bad, i just wouldn't go straight to...}